At a Pakistani gathering and I can’t help but feel so alienated and stressed out. Walking in aunties’ eyes all up on me fake exchanges of salaams.. carefully avoiding brushing the shoulders or looking directly at any man. Sometimes I feel thankful that my mama shys away from these social circles, she feels relatively alienated too.. especially with Baba at dialysis. We don’t really have family friends here and man I don’t know why but its getting kind of hard to keep the tears down.